Now You're Fronting Like I've Never Seen You Front Tonight

I knew it was all in my head.
I'm such an absolute idiot it's insane.
Ah well, at least my mind is at rest so I can go to college tomorrow with a clear head.

I'm dreading going back, I don't want to fall back into the monotonous day to day existence it brings. Sure, I've missed having my routine and stuff this summer, and I know I need a routine to function properly, but I'm just not looking forward to not having my bed at my beck and call. It's going to take some getting used to to tell the God's honest truth.

I've had a good day today, apart from managing to spectacularly injure myself at dance practice for this audition on Saturday, I've just been in high spirits. I'm still feeling ghastly, and I'm not 100% at the moment, but I'm better than I have been in a while. Sat here listening to Four Year Strong and letting the music override everything else is just what it's all about. I'm sort of looking forward to getting the bus into college tomorrow, purely so I get roughly half an hour or so just me and my headphones, I'm going to be loving it. Makes a nice change from driving as well.

I don't particularly want the hassle of having a new tutor, having to learn new names and having to play those Godforsaken 'get to know you' games when you all have to run round like headless chickens to find a chair and stuff and it serves no purpose apart from managing to completely embarrass you in every single way. You don't even make friends or learn people's names, you just end up feeling more and more self-concious with every self deprecating moment.

Ah well, at least there's the slight possibility of seeing my boy tomorrow, which will put a great big high on the day.

Omg, wtf is with the rapping on this Four Year Strong song?!